Random Thoughts on my Friend the Scale

I get up at 5:10 in the morning to exercise - what possesses me to do that???
I weigh myself almost everyday - CAN YOU SAY OBSESSED (and no I don't want to hear that isn't healthy - I could be addicted to much worse things).
Why couldn't I be happy at 183lbs? Do the math - I've lost 30lbs (give or take, depending on what time of the month it is).
I'll tell you why, because if I was still 183lbs, I wouldn't be 183lbs, I'd be more.

(((AND I have to add here (because you have to know that 153 is a good thing). I'm almost 5'9" and big framed - so 153 is VERY exciting.))) another aside - do you know what a big deal it is for me to actually admit the number on the scale????

I have been 153 since about mid July - when I stopped counting WW points. It really worked for me. Someone asked me recently what would make the difference keeping it off this time - because I pay attention to what I put in my mouth! Though who can tell today - why the &*#$& did I bake chocolate chip cookies yesterday (and eat SEVERAL of them)? Because somehow I didn't over indulge the rest of the weekend - so - don't I deserve it?? Oh yes I do! Just THE oldest con in the book. I don't deserve this sick feeling in my stomach do I? WHY does the message that I'm full take so long to get to my brain!!!!!

You know between Thanks Giving, the stress fracture in my foot (which equated to almost no exercise for going on EIGHT weeks) and just generally a lax attitude the lbs started to creep - I put on 3lbs. yes, count them 1 - 2 - 3. BIG DEAL you say? Exactly! It is a big deal, because if I allow the 3, then what's 3 more ETC. So with only a little bit of work and more careful eating (which really isn't too different from the norm for me now). I dropped them again.

And THAT, ladies & gentlemen, is why I weigh myself (almost) everyday.

I like to think that one day my body (& brain) will get used to this shape & size and the obsession will lessen, as long as the lesson isn't lost.